ughhh. I don’t know what it is. I don’t really know why my activity level seems to be on super high these days but its also increased stress level and decreased sleep levels…and it was Ramadan on top of that. Oh, and I’m late AGAIN.
Alot of the times, its because I can’t bring myself to say ‘no’ to people. Whether its planning this event, volunteering for that. I’m PSA President, MSA Conference Chair, Earthquake Dinner volunteer, Chaand Raat volunteer, Eid Open-House hostess, Shejea’s ‘Deputy’ Campaign Manager, working at ISNA and going to school…not to mention all the little things at home (like waiting on my grandmother 24/7).
It’s not that I don’t enjoy these things- I do! I love being involved in things and organizing events and the such-It’s a chance to freely use my creativity!…But after a time, alot of the things I’m asked to help with, I feel obliged to do. People know I’ve had such responsibilities in the past, so they think “oh she can handle it.” Knowing this, I feel like I must say “of course I’ll help!”
At this point, I’m drained. I’m just tired. I wish I could pinpoint the exact date when I could say “ah, I’ll relax after this day,” but every week, every weekend in the near future is booked with one thing or another. One thing I’ve committed to myself, or have been committed to by someone else.
Ahhh, I look forward to that day though. When I won’t have a schedule to think about. When I can think of my “To Do” list without panic. When I can finally catch up on HIMYM, Heroes, Desperate Housewives and Gossip Girl. 
Quote of the Day/Blog:
“Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down.”
Natalie Goldberg, author
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I feel EXACTLY the same way. I’ve spread myself wayyy too thin this semester. Help.
Oh, except I have OTH and Grey’s to catch up on, too.
ps. dey-pudy
Oh wow, how could I forget Greys?!